Sunday, March 01, 2009

Oficinista's Life Cycle

Today I've undeniably completed the full circle of an oficinista's life.

I woke up at nine, which was late than usual on my standard, and, without even bothering to clean myself, went straight to the sofa and began to watch a chinese epic series in DVD for six hours in a row and fell asleep for four hours and woke up again just to continue my digital fantasy adventure online in Ragnarok for two hours before returning to observe the constant conflicts between epic fighters in the series until...now.

Yep, my day was completely useless and wasteful but I was so glad to be able to do such things that would have been unimaginable for me two years ago.

Probably that was how growing up was all about.

All the work and the efforts that were required had drained me out like never before and, worse, left me with no time to enjoy what I used to. Such was the life cycle of the so-called urban oficinistas that I used to perceive when I was younger and professionally less experienced. I even told myself I wouldn't be doing things like that, never. But these days, I had been longing to just lie down on the sofa and have my brain got as less active as possible.

I am aware that this is unhealthy in the long run should I permit myself more of such routines but ... what a tempting thought! One side of me keeps telling I deserve it while the other one objects that I need to make more effort and find a way to take a more "positive" rest. Today I surrendered to the easiest choice but let's hope that it wouldn't happen again since I can't really cope up with the guilt I felt after having done so.

I have to get out of this cycle, not just to be different but also to feel "alive".

Venting out around here has proved an effectively resolutive approach and hopefully will keep me to go on in full energy for a while.

Until the chance of unwinding myself in the upcoming trip in Egypt comes, I will make more effort to stay "alive"!